Hello Erin... bang on for me. I have been experiencing a deep sense of sorrow and a need to apologies to God this past week, because I realised 'I' just can't do it. Meaning I have seen the little 'I' Melinda is not going to be able to awaken. And it is only the Grace of God that will bring this if and when it does happen for this form in this lifetime. It has felt like depression, bottoming out, feeling flat, and no enthusiasm for my very privileged life. I've even had the thoughts lately - am I wasting it? So I reached out to a friend I feel is awake and asked her - "is this a thing that happens along the path to awakening?" And she said 'Yes'. So with that tucked under my belt and a deep sense of 'I have to surrender now', I am meeting the depression and flatness with love. And when action comes - walking in nature and creating my art. This email and the information you are sharing has come at a perfect time for me and gives me another perspective on the shift of our collective consciousness in humanity. I love how God drops the answers into my email box in ripe timing via Erin Reese. Thank you. Much love Mx
Hi Melinda, this is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your experience. I would love for you to come to satsang if you can attend. I know it's super early for you down under, it's 9am Pacific on Sunday, January 12. Please email me if you would like to join.
I'm really glad you have this friend you mention, too. My heart greets her.
Yes, totally correct, "when the action comes [arises]" may as well do those things. Because, who is doing them?
I hear your soul's cry and that desire is the most important thing. Hold onto it like a sword of truth and do not let go. Do not move an inch. Even while whatever is happening, is happening.
So helpful!!!! I had no idea that this weird ennui I have been feeling was greater than me or the pull of winter hibernation. Also very very important to understand what we all need to surrender to for the next 18 months. So much relief. It is not all about me! Go figure?!?
Haha! Nope, it's not all about "you." And (I know you know this, but just to be clear for others) - this surrender is certainly not only for the next 18 months; it's the conditions occurring in time and space that are helping the story of humanity along (those who are evolving) to come into new paradigm consciousness. It's available to all, always, but whether an individual awakens to it is up the the Greater Whole. I love the Zen teaching of, "when one being awakens, all awaken." And conversely, the sleeping affects us all as well. No way out! Cosmic Joke! We are not separate!
Thank you, Nessa, for being a part of my/our Substack community.
Thank you. The "meh" for me I realize is that what was driving me towards all those things I was doing that I thought were "helping" or that I loved- even song circles and gatherings I have been attending for years- well all of the personality traits that drove me towards those things is dying.
So it feels like a void of inspiration as my nervous system goes through a little dissonance.
The impulse, desire or drive to go to a LOT of what I have done was based on wounding and trying to fill a need I couldn't on my own rather than attend for pure enjoyment, pure motivation. It was all perfect and every moment, every event, every initiation, class, course, circle and ceremony were what was needed at the time. I will likely attend all of those things again I imagine as they do hold a lot of what I love and want to foster in this world. I imagine I show up different.
Really lovely, Shira. Thank you. I especially appreciate, "a void of inspiration as my nervous system goes through a little dissonance." Makes perfect sense to me. Blessed new beginnings to you.
Hi Linda, thank you for your comment! Yes, the Yoga of Disgust is a term I have coined over the past several years. When the ego knows the jig is up.... it's just a matter of time before the real awakening hits! I appreciate your readership and participation!
Beautiful. Sometimes, it's a both/and... and the contentness is the yummy seat in and as and of the Self that does not come and go. Thank you for reading and commenting, Catherine!
Thanks for this, Erin. This totally and completely resonates. And it's funny, I'd never heard the term neti-neti before now, and I was literally thinking yesterday that "Not this, not that" should be my epitaph! (My brother and I have a running joke making up witty epitaphs for our deceased parents and ourselves). The flatness, a feeling of dysthymia and existential angst (dare I say dread)...yes to all of it. And, to everything there is a season...
Hello Erin... bang on for me. I have been experiencing a deep sense of sorrow and a need to apologies to God this past week, because I realised 'I' just can't do it. Meaning I have seen the little 'I' Melinda is not going to be able to awaken. And it is only the Grace of God that will bring this if and when it does happen for this form in this lifetime. It has felt like depression, bottoming out, feeling flat, and no enthusiasm for my very privileged life. I've even had the thoughts lately - am I wasting it? So I reached out to a friend I feel is awake and asked her - "is this a thing that happens along the path to awakening?" And she said 'Yes'. So with that tucked under my belt and a deep sense of 'I have to surrender now', I am meeting the depression and flatness with love. And when action comes - walking in nature and creating my art. This email and the information you are sharing has come at a perfect time for me and gives me another perspective on the shift of our collective consciousness in humanity. I love how God drops the answers into my email box in ripe timing via Erin Reese. Thank you. Much love Mx
Hi Melinda, this is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your experience. I would love for you to come to satsang if you can attend. I know it's super early for you down under, it's 9am Pacific on Sunday, January 12. Please email me if you would like to join.
I'm really glad you have this friend you mention, too. My heart greets her.
Yes, totally correct, "when the action comes [arises]" may as well do those things. Because, who is doing them?
I hear your soul's cry and that desire is the most important thing. Hold onto it like a sword of truth and do not let go. Do not move an inch. Even while whatever is happening, is happening.
Grateful to make your acquaintance here, Melinda.
So helpful!!!! I had no idea that this weird ennui I have been feeling was greater than me or the pull of winter hibernation. Also very very important to understand what we all need to surrender to for the next 18 months. So much relief. It is not all about me! Go figure?!?
Haha! Nope, it's not all about "you." And (I know you know this, but just to be clear for others) - this surrender is certainly not only for the next 18 months; it's the conditions occurring in time and space that are helping the story of humanity along (those who are evolving) to come into new paradigm consciousness. It's available to all, always, but whether an individual awakens to it is up the the Greater Whole. I love the Zen teaching of, "when one being awakens, all awaken." And conversely, the sleeping affects us all as well. No way out! Cosmic Joke! We are not separate!
Thank you, Nessa, for being a part of my/our Substack community.
Thank you. The "meh" for me I realize is that what was driving me towards all those things I was doing that I thought were "helping" or that I loved- even song circles and gatherings I have been attending for years- well all of the personality traits that drove me towards those things is dying.
So it feels like a void of inspiration as my nervous system goes through a little dissonance.
The impulse, desire or drive to go to a LOT of what I have done was based on wounding and trying to fill a need I couldn't on my own rather than attend for pure enjoyment, pure motivation. It was all perfect and every moment, every event, every initiation, class, course, circle and ceremony were what was needed at the time. I will likely attend all of those things again I imagine as they do hold a lot of what I love and want to foster in this world. I imagine I show up different.
Whoosh. Here we go.
Really lovely, Shira. Thank you. I especially appreciate, "a void of inspiration as my nervous system goes through a little dissonance." Makes perfect sense to me. Blessed new beginnings to you.
I had to share your post Erin, it felt so resonant. And I was delighted by your term Yoga of Disgust! Thank you 🙏
Hi Linda, thank you for your comment! Yes, the Yoga of Disgust is a term I have coined over the past several years. When the ego knows the jig is up.... it's just a matter of time before the real awakening hits! I appreciate your readership and participation!
Resonates, thank you
Thank you, MaeMae!
Although I have been feeling this too, I also feel content.
Beautiful. Sometimes, it's a both/and... and the contentness is the yummy seat in and as and of the Self that does not come and go. Thank you for reading and commenting, Catherine!
Thanks for this, Erin. This totally and completely resonates. And it's funny, I'd never heard the term neti-neti before now, and I was literally thinking yesterday that "Not this, not that" should be my epitaph! (My brother and I have a running joke making up witty epitaphs for our deceased parents and ourselves). The flatness, a feeling of dysthymia and existential angst (dare I say dread)...yes to all of it. And, to everything there is a season...
I adore your epitaph wit! Perfect! And yes, "to everything there is a season." Happy New Year, Alisa!